I’ve often wondered what it would be like to live my life all over again and make different decisions with the foreknowledge of what my life would look like if I had ‘turned left’ instead of right. I’ve fantasized about transplanting my present moment consciousness into a younger age with the full wisdom and personal …
With the deepening awareness of conscious awakening and the unfolding understanding that comes from a life of sobriety and integration, I have found many concepts that have been tossed around by authors (myself included) to hold truths. There is no doubt that we tap into the subconscious when we authors channel our literary dances into prose and …
In the last three years I have met a lot people who have created a dependency on the plant medicines (drugs) in order to gain insight into dilemmas they perceive that they have in life. Not one of these people I know who has partaken in their ceremonial experience has to my understanding gained any …
The Austrian scholar and mystic Rudolf Steiner in the early 20th century brought through his Anthroposophical teachings many predictions that have become reality one hundred years later. One of Steiner’s most telling predictions was the incarnation of the entity he named Ahriman. In Zoroastrianism and Zorvanism, two early Persian religions, Ahriman is the twin brother of …
Addiction has been a huge part of my life experience. In earnest, addiction was for me a form of coping with trauma, boredom and often subjugating unexpressed emotion. When I was at Otago University, in Dunedin, alcoholism (which has history on my father’s side of the family) became my coping mechanism as I began to …
It’s a cliche that you hear in movies, poems, and songs If I had known then, what I know now, would I have taken the job with Suzanne Castonguay when she said, “You’re going to work for me”, I am at a loss to say yes or no. Without being dramatic, there is so much about …
I remained glued on the spot where I stood until the women broke out into Waiata (a song used to commemorate a special occasion for the Mauri people), and then I slowly turned and walked away back through the forest and down the hill to the sound of the women singing echoing through the forest. …
I don’t remember the date that I first encountered the disembodied in 2785 West 10th and Macdonald. I do remember the first being that I saw there was a shadow being that strode out of Eryn’s room and went towards the wall that separated the downstairs flat from upstairs. Where there had once been a door (and …
(This a is story from the mid-1990s when I was living in the Tasman Bay region picking apples in the late summer… a wondrous and wild story) It was a beautiful day in Tasman Bay when I strolled into the garden at Gabby’s home and found Kiriana sitting and drinking tea. She knew that I …
Climbing into the back of Erin’s van, I marvelled at the decorative style that he had created. Batik sarongs, psychedelic hangings over a carpeted interior wall lining, kept me warm as I lay on his mattress. Bundles of his clothes sat to my right with Kristen and my backpacks on my left. I had chosen …